I love God. Very much. Atleast that is what I have been telling people for as long as I can remember. Amazing then how my life song doesn't sing the same lyrics.
Amazing how I say I believe the Word with all my heart....and then wake up everyday, anxious and afraid for the future, unmindful of the 365 "Fear Not"s in the Bible.
Amazing how I can write a blog post on how fearfully and wonderfully made I am.....and yet carry a truckload of insecurities on my back.
Amazing how I say God is my highest priority and that nothing but nothing can come before Him....and yet find it hard to keep my cellphone aside when I should be in His presence, worshipping Him alone.
Amazing how I can pray "Lord, let your will be done"....and yet keep my foot in a door that He is trying to close.
Amazing how I know every hymn and Gospel chorus about the cleansing, healing power of the Lamb's blood....and yet find it next to impossible to curb my temper and lashing tongue.
Amazing how I have been a knowledgeable Scriptural quiz mistress for ages....and yet cannot bring to mind an appropriate verse to comfort, strengthen and encourage myself when I need it.
Amazing how I teach my Youth Fellowship to depend on nothing but the Word of God....and yet prefer to play Farmville rather than set apart time for Bible reading and devotions everyday.
Amazing how I shout out that Job 13:15 is my life's motto....and yet crib and complain of unfair treatment from the Lord everyday.
Amazing how I describe my life's ambition as to become Christ-like....and yet not even those closest to me can see a trace of His holiness and love in my character.
Amazing how I preach Galatians 2:20 so vociferously....and yet fight ferociously to keep my pride and feed my ego.
Amazing how I project myself as a person of the highest levels of integrity....and yet cannot honestly acknowledge my faults even to myself.
Amazing how I claim to love Him with all my heart....and yet (as I can now see), do not.
Diagnosis: I've gotta be the world's greatest hypocrite and one that has hidden it amazingly well, even from myself! The good news is, the scales have dropped from my eyes.
So what now? Am I going to keep up appearances and continue fooling myself, my friends and my social circle? Am I going to keep churning out beautiful writing that so artfully hides my spiritual imperfections from the world? Am I going to stay blind to the powerlessness of Christ's resurrection power in my pathetically hypocritical life? Am I going to keep insulting my omniscient God with meaningless and fraudulent lip service?
I don't think so. I think it's time. Time to be hard on myself. Time to face up to the half-heartedness of my beliefs. Time to acknowledge and repent for the skin-deep faith I have exhibited. Time to take life by the horns and stand up solidly and relentlessly for everything I have professed to believe in thus far.
Reader, if you've been here, done this, then you know what the plan of action is too. I emphatically suggest you don't waste any more precious time lamenting that God hasn't blessed your holy living. Do yourself a favour and take a long, hard look at your heart-attitude.
Beautiful words that express your faith and a vague good intention to live up to those words in the distant future, do not worship make. Instead, get down and dirty and let your life do all the speaking in place of your lips. In other words, just walk the talk. dude. For only then will you see God's faithfulness shine in your life, like the Pole star on a dark and stormy night. God bless!
Matthew 7:3-5 - "Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? How can you say to your brother, 'Let me take the speck out of your eye,' when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye."
Amazing how I have been a knowledgeable Scriptural quiz mistress for ages....and yet cannot bring to mind an appropriate verse to comfort, strengthen and encourage myself when I need it.
Amazing how I teach my Youth Fellowship to depend on nothing but the Word of God....and yet prefer to play Farmville rather than set apart time for Bible reading and devotions everyday.
Amazing how I shout out that Job 13:15 is my life's motto....and yet crib and complain of unfair treatment from the Lord everyday.
Amazing how I describe my life's ambition as to become Christ-like....and yet not even those closest to me can see a trace of His holiness and love in my character.
Amazing how I preach Galatians 2:20 so vociferously....and yet fight ferociously to keep my pride and feed my ego.
Amazing how I project myself as a person of the highest levels of integrity....and yet cannot honestly acknowledge my faults even to myself.
Amazing how I claim to love Him with all my heart....and yet (as I can now see), do not.
Diagnosis: I've gotta be the world's greatest hypocrite and one that has hidden it amazingly well, even from myself! The good news is, the scales have dropped from my eyes.
So what now? Am I going to keep up appearances and continue fooling myself, my friends and my social circle? Am I going to keep churning out beautiful writing that so artfully hides my spiritual imperfections from the world? Am I going to stay blind to the powerlessness of Christ's resurrection power in my pathetically hypocritical life? Am I going to keep insulting my omniscient God with meaningless and fraudulent lip service?
I don't think so. I think it's time. Time to be hard on myself. Time to face up to the half-heartedness of my beliefs. Time to acknowledge and repent for the skin-deep faith I have exhibited. Time to take life by the horns and stand up solidly and relentlessly for everything I have professed to believe in thus far.
Reader, if you've been here, done this, then you know what the plan of action is too. I emphatically suggest you don't waste any more precious time lamenting that God hasn't blessed your holy living. Do yourself a favour and take a long, hard look at your heart-attitude.
Beautiful words that express your faith and a vague good intention to live up to those words in the distant future, do not worship make. Instead, get down and dirty and let your life do all the speaking in place of your lips. In other words, just walk the talk. dude. For only then will you see God's faithfulness shine in your life, like the Pole star on a dark and stormy night. God bless!
Matthew 7:3-5 - "Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? How can you say to your brother, 'Let me take the speck out of your eye,' when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye."
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